April 21, 2011

Kindergarten Round-up.

We had Kindergarten Round-up earlier this week, and to say my emotions are mixed is an understatement.

On one hand, I am SO excited for Sassy to start Kindergarten. She is a very smart little girl, and I am amazed by what she has learned so far at home and in preschool. I can't wait to see her continue to strive in the school setting, to continue to make growth in her reading skills and reasoning and all that good stuff. I look forward to her making new friends and attending birthday parties and further establishing a network of girlfriends that make her feel special and important and capable. I look forward to getting to know her new teacher and contributing to her classroom. There is so much I look forward to.

On the other hand, I am conflicted. It's going to be along, lonely day without Sassy by my side. This is like big time, this full-day kindergarten. Sassy is growing up so fast. I worry about her. I worry that she will not eat her lunch. I worry about the effect of mini-mean girls. My Sassy is so kind and sensitive- she gets her feelings hurt easily and is not the best at sticking up for herself. This breaks my heart, and it worries me deeply. I won't be there to protect her or calm her down or give her a great big hug. I often think back to the days when Sassy was a baby, when it was just her and I in this big, new city, and we were who the other had to rely on. That was it. Things have changed so much in five years!

With all of that being said, we trucked right along to kindergarten round-up. We dropped Sassy off int he multi-purpose room as we were asked to and went on to the gym to listen to the presentations. Sassy colored and met new friends and learned the rules of the school bus. All in all, it took about an hour. Things went smoothly.

Still, I cannot stop thinking about how that one little hour changed so many things, and how in a few short months, Sassy will be ready & eager for this important milestone to arrive.

Mom... not so much.

Well, maybe.

I don't know.

Ask me again in August!

3 sweet tweets:

Kendra said...


So babies are SO hard right? Well I watched the season finale of "Parenthood" the other night (love that show!) and promptly told David we are moving to the woods.

Teenagers? Yikes. SO much to worry about. Made my life and my fears now seem so small.

Shannon said...

Big hugs Heather! I'm right there with you but Ryan's RoundUp isn't until May 2nd. I will have a similar post coming soon, I know it. I keep reminding myself that this next stage in life is going to be great, different than the baby/toddler but good for all of us. So far, it isn't working too well though!

Anonymous said...

Heather - I know I'd be feeling the same way you are. I will be in your shoes in 1 year. And I know I will be worrying about Mal being at school, all on her own. I think we are doing preschool this Fall for her. She will go just 3 mornings a week, which I know will be good for her, but I worry that 3 mornings a week is too much... so when it comes time for kindergarten I know I will be a mess! Enjoy every moment over the summer!! :)