We had Kindergarten Round-up earlier this week, and to say my emotions are mixed is an understatement.
On one hand, I am SO excited for Sassy to start Kindergarten. She is a very smart little girl, and I am amazed by what she has learned so far at home and in preschool. I can't wait to see her continue to strive in the school setting, to continue to make growth in her reading skills and reasoning and all that good stuff. I look forward to her making new friends and attending birthday parties and further establishing a network of girlfriends that make her feel special and important and capable. I look forward to getting to know her new teacher and contributing to her classroom. There is so much I look forward to.
On the other hand, I am conflicted. It's going to be along, lonely day without Sassy by my side. This is like big time, this full-day kindergarten. Sassy is growing up so fast. I worry about her. I worry that she will not eat her lunch. I worry about the effect of mini-mean girls. My Sassy is so kind and sensitive- she gets her feelings hurt easily and is not the best at sticking up for herself. This breaks my heart, and it worries me deeply. I won't be there to protect her or calm her down or give her a great big hug. I often think back to the days when Sassy was a baby, when it was just her and I in this big, new city, and we were who the other had to rely on. That was it. Things have changed so much in five years!
With all of that being said, we trucked right along to kindergarten round-up. We dropped Sassy off int he multi-purpose room as we were asked to and went on to the gym to listen to the presentations. Sassy colored and met new friends and learned the rules of the school bus. All in all, it took about an hour. Things went smoothly.
Still, I cannot stop thinking about how that one little hour changed so many things, and how in a few short months, Sassy will be ready & eager for this important milestone to arrive.
Mom... not so much.
I don't know.
Ask me again in August!